Monday, December 21, 2009

Bittersweet end to finals week

Hey guys,

Im back! I am so glad to be done with finals! Sadly the end of finals week is a little bittersweet for me. I just found out that I did not pass one of my nursing courses with a C. I unfortunately received a C- after taking the final with a 103 fever, granted I did dig my own grave. I should have just told the professor when I got there I that was in no shape to be taking a test. Now I am forced to repeat the course next fall. So this whole upcoming semester will be filled with taking Gen-ed courses. Which is all fine and dandy except for the fact that I am practically done all of them up to my bachelor's and they are beginning to wear thin.

Im sorry to be blurting this all out, but I am afraid to tell my friends at home. I think that they are going to be seriously disappointed in me. I feel like a complete and total failure. There is no way I can break this to my mom, she will go completely bonkers with worry and I cant do that to her.

Just when you think that life is finally going your way, it has to throw you a huge curve ball. Sometimes I wish the world and the universe could leave well enough alone, sadly for some reason it refuses to do so. Ugh I could just kick myself right in the butt! All of the hard work that I have done, right down the drain. Granted I should be thankful to the fact that I am not out of the nursing program I am sort of like taking a semester off. It just sucks because it sets me back almost a year. This means that next fall I am only taking the one nursing course, so its like Im starting at a freshman all over again. I am hoping that it does not feel that way once the semester starts.

Thanks to those of you who read this, I apologize for ranting like this right before Christmas. You guys are the absolute best! :) I hope that all of you have a wonderful Christmas/Holiday and a fantastic break from school.


1 comment:

  1. awe sweetie that stinks! but i definitely know how you feel about being upset and disappointed and afraid to tell your family. just keep in mind that they always love you and will understand that you did your best and that's what matters. in the end, you'll end up exactly where you are supposed to be. don't hesitate to get in touch if you want or need to talk <3